the 25th year

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Gummy candy

Today was interesting...

Busy morning of class, followed by a very wet bike ride to work. The morning was nice. Work was okay. Another wet bike ride home. Then the interesting things begin, weed pancakes. I don't smoke marijuana, I feel uncomfortable usually. So after eating the pancakes I continued my evening of attempted productivity. Which led to staring into space, starting three projects without finishing, making one hell of a to-do list, thinking I was smelling gasoline, and finally, eating the remaining jelly eggs in a bag from easter. As I ate the fifth egg, which was similar in size to the jelly orange slice, I wondered how these could taste so awesome! I started reading the ingredient list with my mouth salivating and chomping on the too big bite, 'high fructose corn syrup, corn starch, sugar, artificial.....'. Immediately my belly started aching. Finally, around 9pm I decide dinner would be a good idea. Plenty of leftover pasta for lunch tomorrow, and low and behold another lesson learned. When you eat weed pancakes, be sure to eat a healthy dinner before diving into jelly eggs and Coors Light.

Monday, June 27, 2011

as i come upon my 25th year...

july 1 marks the first day of the 25th year of my life. it has been about two years since my last blog.

i wouldn't say 25 is scary. i'm enamoured by the aging process. perhaps this has to do with my interest in knitting, antiques, and old people. whatever the case, to me, aging is a beautiful thing. my current challenge is to prepare a lifestyle that will allow me to age, in this beautiful, graceful way. i think everyone has heard the term when referring to a lady's looks, "rode hard and put away wet." it's a very harsh way of saying, "my dear, you look older than your years." these judgments really don't mean a thing. although society's view is held high in our culture, the most important thing is appreciating the self.

two years ago i traveled to alaska, worked a seasonal job, and started a variety of work and travel that has landed me in san francisco. throughout the journey, i worked became vegetarian, lived on a mountain, worked on a farm, moved to the desert, grew herbs, became vegan, signed a one-year lease, and ate pork. life changes, and looking back on the different lifestyles i have toyed with, i have found my favorite. being happy. living day to day with awareness of the self. ayurveda is a lifestyle i have been dabbling in the most in the last year and a half. in my 25th year, i will be attempting a shift. my goal is NOT for this shift to be dramatic, but gradual. lifestyle happens with our habits become our actions. my hope is to adjust my daily habits to influence my actions, leading to a more vibrant and energetic lifestyle. as in most lifestyle changes, there may be relapses.. we shall see!

i would say i generally have very weak personal accountability. so this is where the journaling comes in :)

i have been, for the past year an a half, interested in mental/physical health and overall well-being. i am not a shining example of any of these things.

year 25, you will be different. you will strengthen the mind-body. you will experience the emotional roller-coaster of life happily, freely, and without judgment. allowing yin and yang to guide balance internally and externally.

until tomorrow.